Last month I resolved to lose weight for real.
I say “for real” because although I’ve always said I wanted to lose weight, I never really did anything to actually help me shed some pounds. But last month I decided to really make an effort to lose weight. And going through my old photos on Facebook, I saw the difference between how I looked 5 years ago and how I look in the past 2 to 3 years.
Here are some of my photos from 5-10 years ago (the first 3 photos are from 2009).
For reference, here are some of my photos from the past 2 years.
Yes I know I’m not overweight, but my body mass index is in the upper limit of the “normal” range. I’d like it to fall in the middle of “normal”. I don’t want to wait until I’m officially overweight before I do something about my health, especially because my family has a history of conditions like diabetes.
So I had to think about how and why I gained weight in just a few years.
If you look at the first 3 photos on my “before” collage and compare it to the photos on my “current” collage, you’ll see how much weight I gained in just a span of 3-4 years. I wonder if the fact that I wasn’t single anymore contributed to it. You know, like I don’t have to always look good anymore because I was officially out of the dating market.
Another factor perhaps is that my body changed a lot after I got pregnant. My mom says the women in our family have the tendency to gain a lot of weight after pregnancy. Or maybe that’s just an excuse. Maybe the real reason was that I couldn’t and didn’t want to stop eating. Staying at home while I was pregnant and after giving birth gave me so much free time that I probably just turned to snacking and eating so I won’t get bored. And now it’s a bad habit that I need to stop.
I know losing weight, eating healthier, and becoming more active will take discipline and self-control.
And maybe I will fall at times and give in to my cravings. But I know that I can do this. I can lose weight if I set my mind on it. I think looking at my pictures from then and now will help me push and motivate myself. But ultimately, I know I should know why I’m doing this or who I’m doing it for.
It’s for myself and for my family. And I hope I never lose sight of that so I can keep myself motivated.